im so so confused right now. it feels like everyone i know wants different things or thinks diffeent directions would be best than what i am feeling.
the thing is is that i dont trust myself enough to jump where i think i should go. and i know my decisions effect the people around me massively.
being ill makes these decisions so much harder because i know i have to factor in my care needs which at the moment are huge. but i dont know how or what to do and whether what i feel is right and if it is how to move forward.
im so afraid and most of all im afraid to trust my instincts
im afraid to let people down or to hurt anyone in my prcesses.
i want to walk where i should walk and be still where i should be still then jump when its time to jump
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